Personal

Oh God, this is so difficult. I've got through Christmas - not without a blip or two, but I got through it. But now it's the run-up to New Year, and wherever you look, papers or television, it's retrospective time. Here I am trying so hard not to keep looking back, but everything conspires against me. I can't open a paper without being reminded of events which happened while my wife was still alive. I keep telling myself that I must concentrate more on the future, and less on the past, but it's so, so difficult.